Thursday, 21 August 2008

•     So I dropped my beau off at college yesterday...  It was terribly emotional, for both of us.  He, at times, was the only stable thing i had in my life over this past year and now he is 80 some miles away.  I hope he knows how much I miss him.  He's staying in a co-ed dorm... ehhmm.. I'm not exactly thrilled, nor am i surprised.  I stayed up until 2am this morning weeping, thinking, what if i need him?  An hour and a half seems like light years in a crisis.
  Katie leaves tomorrow, i didn't have the heart to see her off. 
  
  
  
  

  Everyone i love is leaving
  

  
  
  
     I'm so alone/depressed/anxious i just want this year to be over.  I need to make some new friends, but if i make new friends will i have time for my old ones?  I could never replace them.  I have no desire to either.  I'm just lonely.  So, terribly lonely.
  
      I've been waiting since 2 to webcam with my boy, and i still haven't heard from him. I want to see him, i need to see him.  I need to remind him how much i care, i love him, i don't wanna loose him there.  I don't want him to loose me here.  I just wanna hug him. Kiss him... See him.
  
      Well school starts monday.  That'll be fun.  I got my books today... $320.  Thank god for government sponsored postsecondary :D  Next year i'll sell a kidney or something to afford books. I'm counting down the days until my graduation, i wanna leave, move on, move in, move up, move AWAY.  This isn't just senor-itis. This is passion.
  
  
      Hopefully tonight i can sleep.
  

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